instant 4 in 1(family, responsibility, challenge n future!!!) just add water....

embrace urslf!!! i do think this post will be lonnnnggggg!!!

hihihi... 2day is along nite... went to fuji speedway on weken... out from house on saturday nite.. 9pm... head to megalos 8oji.. tak masuk gym pon.. just swim in the pool.. spend my time in jacuzzi n sauna till 10pm... head to shinjuku.... hv a quick bite at mcdonald... take another train to kebab istanbul office.. arrive there just on time... 12am.. after putting all the things into the trucks.. we head to fuji speedway... the journey was short.. less than two hours... we stop at 7-e.. bought some food... pull the trucks at a stop... hv our meal while waiting to enter the event area...430am... after waiting 4 most 2 hours in the cold... finally en tokyo-do pon tiba... it wuz still dark n cold...(it wuznt even 5am..)but i counted there were no less than 100 cars waiting to enter fuji speedway(from the east gate only)..

1hr ++ needed to set both stall(we hv two stalls.. one is tent..n one in the 300k rm kebab truck...talk about this truck when i hv the time...)...it wuz toyota motorsports festival.. a busy day as always... 10 staff... 1.1mil yen(about 45k rm in sale..) just another successful day... start packing our stuff at 5pm.. ready to leave at 6pm... we only arrive at toll gate after almost 2hrs.. it wuz three day holidays... n everybody is coming back to tokyo.. the roads were pack with cars... even the highways were packed... the return trip took 5 hrs.. 2.5x more than we had the nite b4... rushed to train station with en gemok... arrived at my room sweet room around 12am... took a bath... a long bath in the small ofuro... watched some news... i didnt know when i fall asleep... it wuz 4pm when i opened my eyes... a long sweet sleep in the rain... all japan wuz raining for the whole day.. just nice... it wuz just what i need...

hv to cut the story short... already took 1hr to this point... i havent write anything about the title yet... it has been almost 4 years since i first arrive here... since i've been in the boarding school since i wuz twelve... the homesick feeling hv not been a problem.... there is a but anyway... i do miss my family... at times... i realize i've missed a lot of family occasions.. birthday.. anniversary, weddings, death... name it... i think i hv all in my pocket... n i dont even know how to repay them for all the things i've missed... my mom, my dad, my sisters, my brother n brother in laws... last but not least... my niece n nephews..

i had a long talk with a fried 2nite... one thing lead to another... there wuz a long part we talked about families... it knocked my sense that i really miss them... part of i havent spent much time with them.. part i feel i hv my responsibilities to them... i tried to be a good kid... but there are times i failed... tried 2 behave every single seconds i could... but there are times disappointed them... a lot of times... i know i'm not perfect... n i couldn't be... but i learn that i hv responsibilities to make up with everything i missed.. n every time i've done wrong... + i am the first boy in the family... like it or not... i will hv responsibilities towards my families.. big n small...

there are other things that i hv to make up too... add it with the families... my dream that i'm chasing... i think i hv a to do list long enough to occupied me till i dead... =p i always takes thing one at a time.. i think i need to start to upgrade myself... learn multi tasking... a duo core processor.... start killing two birds with a stone... note to myself... intel has a quad core... n ibm has cell processor in ps3 that has 8 core... get a new mobo, add some ram n train urself to upgrade to quad core n cell processor.. u will need it...

i used to hv plans... n guess wut.. i fall behind... tried to catch up... but i just fall even further... the last fall i had make me realize... i need to stop.. breath in... prepare myself up to face even more tougher challenges ahead of me.. it has been long n tiring journey... but i'm not even halfway to my goal... hurmm.. now i'm thinking about my recovery up protein... i usually worn myself up... i need a good but short rest... coz i need the time n energy to spend on the next thing i hv to face... but continue with the whey protein too will u? they produce some results dont they?+ the chocolate flavor do taste good rite?

instead just upgrading the processor.. i need to speed up recovery.. that way i could spend more time running.. n less time stopping.. multi task... faster processor.. o whole lot more time to process... hurmm... that sounds like a plan... one step at a time khalili... no.. NO!!! two steps!! u hv the duo core now dont u... this foreseeable future is a little bit dark n scary... just like when i hv my first night dive... vertigo... n one huge torch lite just not enough to do the trick.. i need my spare torch light to go through the dark... luckily i came prepared...

another note to myself... when u're diving into something... dont get to focused on the things that u want to see.. just give enough attention so ur dont get COT torns into ur fingers... watch out for the jelly fish around u... duck n dive n hope u are lucky enough not to touch them... or the definite potion is ur pee... do that... n at the same time... watch the beauty of the ocean floor that human only live on the ground missed... gorgeous, mesmerizing... no words could explain... the beauty that u troubled urself to get to... hopefully it will be worthwhile...

hurmmm... i dont how i sounded like with all that words... i think i just talked about myself using the terms of the 3 things i'm into... probably that will confused most if not all of the person that will read this post... huhuhu... well.. interpret it how u want it to be... its not sonnet or any masterpiece... i dont talk about the road that not taken or anything... another hurmm... am i going crazy? hopefully not...

guess i will return with the long but not too please read between the line post next time.. i hv a lot of hobbies.. i'm sorry... think back about it.. i hv a post titled life is like a rpg game... man!!! i do hv a lot of hobbies... i'll stop hitting the keyboards while i think about keeping all my hobbies or leave some of them b4 i hv my good morning sleep..

till then....
:xoxo: